I feel a short story brewing, and I'm off center.

Wow.  It's been eight whole days since I've even remembered that I have a blog.  The end of the week was exhausting; the weekend was a storm of unproductive activity; the beginning of this week was crisis packed on top of crisis (not for me personally, but I was related to the incidents.).  I can't believe I was foolish enough to even think that I would do any writing during this time.  I do still occasionally think about my novel, but I know it is going to be hard to get back to it.  I'm in that horrible place where I want it to be done but am not sure what to do next.

I do feel a short story brewing though.  It is a weird feeling.  I actually wonder how many stories I've lost because it took me so long to even realize what this feeling is.  In the past, I would get this feeling, this very feeling that is dancing away inside me right now, and would be irritated by it, and frustrated by it, and would just wait it out.  I would wait and complain about it until the feeling went away, then be relieved when it did.  I wonder if those stories would have been any good.

Now there is a story brewing, and I recognize the feeling.  I know it is in there, hidden somewhere in my brain, and is piecing itself together so that when it is ready it will let me know.  It is an odd feeling--sort of like ants under my skin in the front of my brain and in my fingers.  It's all itchy and scratchy and feels like static electricity jolting around my veins.  It truly makes me wonder if other writers, if I dare to consider myself such, have an actual physical feeling with their writing.  I honestly have this jittery ambiance inside of my head and hands that I know now will manifest as a story.

Someone told me today that I was off center.  Though I'm quite sure the lady did not mean it nicely, I find it to be a fairly accurate portrayal of what I thought was an obvious fact.  I think I like that description of my quirkiness and am going to embrace the fact that I am off center.

No vocabulary because I'm exhausted, thoroughly exhausted.  My new plan is to create a new plan either in the last week of this year or the first week of the new year.  It will include reachable weekly goals, monthly goals, periodic goals, and a time table.  There may not be much for the next week or so, but by golly, watch out in 2010.